Share Trader

Today, I joined with ecomonically liberated, putting my hard (well, hard being a purely figurative term for a public servant) earned dollars into the Australian Stock Exchange.

Being the good steadfast friend of the Australian Film and Entertainment industry in general, I put my trust in a little company called Manga Pacific, who have been helping build the art house film scene here for quite some time. The market, in it's benevolent grace, responded by increasing my stock by a good ole one shiny cent per share.

Ain't it nice, to be rewarded...

And now as I glance my clean crisp contract note (which kindly tells you of the what fors and what haves of your friendly investment), I can not help but feel somewhat proud of my first foray into the heady economic world of the exchange.

And so thus, my gentle reader, I cannot finish without stating that most memorable qoutes of Michael Douglas, "Greed is good.."

Relationships

There comes a moment in everyones life where we have to face up to some strong self-scrutiny about the direction of our life, our jobs, our goals and dreams, and our relationships.

These are moments which require courage to face, and they are always not easy paths to take.

Particularly when it comes to relationships.


After two years of living together, a couple will reach a plateau, and at that stage, you will, on a very instictual level know whether or not you will be able to continue past it.

When you first start out, things are generally smooth, but over time you will notice the little quirks that begin to either tear you apart, or bring you closer together.

The problem is, when you hit those crossroads, is will you do the right thing and break it off then, or will you allow it to continue to it's almost inevitable destruction.

You may tell yourself, that you or your other partner can change, that you can make it work just with a little faith and will alone. But do not be caught up by this, because if there is one thing for certain in this world, it is that people never change. We are creatures of habit, and we can not deny our true natures, no matter how destructive they may be.

This is one thing that life has taught me well..

Yet knowing this, I have found that out of the range of relationships that I have had, I have often lacked the courage to do the right thing and break it off when I knew the truth that could not be denied.

In this thing, I have often been the coward, and rode the relationship on it's path to a spectacular final end.

And so it comes around to my current relationship...

I have been with my current partner, EC, for just about two and a half years now, and our individual quirks and habit now ride rough on our individual tempers. I kinda knew that we would never be the prefect couple when we started out, having been with an aries woman once before in my life, which also ended on really bad terms.

In hindsight, had I have know she was an aries when I just started dating her, I expect I would have cut it off then, haunted by my previous relationship experience. But at that time, she knew how to laugh, and when she smiled, I felt the world get all that more brighter with her in.

But now, on some occassions, I just can't stand to be in the same room as her, and have to retreat to my private sanctum , to allow myself to de-stress from her foul moods.

I know that I will have to leave her, and some part of me has to wonder if she isn't coming to the same conclusions as I. Perhaps we are both held in the same holding pattern, waiting for someone to breathe, so to speak.

But I have tied up a great deal of my life with her, and now I found myself in the unenviable position of having to regain my independance again. So, I am faced with the most horrible of propositions, to continue to live a lie, whilst setting all my affairs in order.

It is one of my greatest burdens to bear at the moment, and nor is it a shining moment in my life, but in my heart I am afraid of what comes next, and without a plan, a fallback position to go to, that terror gnaws at my heart.

And so, in this, my gentle reader, I bare to you the failings in my own soul, my deep and terrible flaw that I carry in me as my secret, my burden, my sin.

All I can hope for in the end, is that I will make that break faster, and in such a way that I can minimise the damage that I will most surely do, and hope that I can still face myself in the mirror...

And so it goes on..

A bit more of the personality frivolity tests, this time based on Lord of the Rings Characters..





You are most like Aragorn. You have strong convictions and you stick to them. Although you are more of a recluse, you are extremely loyal to the few friends that you have. You are very serious about things, but you like having fun. Fame and fortune mean little to you, and you aren't concerned with being popular. Good for you!

Another Quiz

More Time wastage results..


Your Mythic character personality...


You are the dragon. A dragon, in western lore, is a giant lizard with wings. It usually has the capability to breathe fire. The dragon symbolizes immense power, physical strength, and courage. The dragon has also been a symbol of wisdom and of protection. Dragons may also appear to be greedy as many a tale depict them as keepers of vast hordes of treasure.

Now only if I had the vast of hordes of treasure in real life...

If personality could be pressed into neat plastic...

With some spare time on my hand, I have idly wandered the net, stumbling on this dice pool personality test- Here are the shocking results...

Take the quiz at dicepool.com

No use trying to fight it, you're an eight-sided die, a d8. A fine example of simple elegance, the d8 is one of the least appreciated types of dice, and is often neglected. You are known to be quiet and shy, outward traits that conceal viscous sarcasm and mean wit. You are very smart, yet wise enough to hide your intelligence the quicker they found out how smart you are, the sooner they'll put you to work, which is something you can do without. People call you dark and pessimistic, or moody and cynical. You find little point in arguing.


Who would have guess...

Scooters

Nifty little things, scooters. Personally, I’ve never been one for cars. They are only handy when you need to move house, otherwise I have been a strong advocate for the use of public transport, particularly here in Canberra (If it only was as good as the public transport system in Germany, then I would never own a vehicle at all). But, you just got to love a good looking scooter, particularly now that the maxi scooter market has been successfully established here in Australia now.

So, I’ve been looking to purchase one of late. It has been a bit of a toss up, with me drifting back and forth from the Piaggio X9 and the Yamaha T-Max. I’ve also had a look at respective 250cc version of each model (the majesty in the case of the T-Max), but the though of having a more long range tourer is appealing on it own merit.

Licensing in the ACT however is a real pain in the ass. At least in Queensland, you only need to go to the one place to get everything done. Here in the ACT, it's the back and fro with the respective outsourced segments of government, in order to get the job done. Oh, and a applicable fee at each step of the way, just so they get the best run out of your wallet, and if you miss a step, well all the way back to square one, with your respective paperwork in tow.

Quite Painful, in one simple word.

Yet, once the process is finished, I think I will be quite enjoying my new purchase.

Just Another Journey

Like most beginnings, it started in blood and fire, or maybe just something more distant and passive as usual.

It begins with a simple memory, of someone long past and nearly forgotten, oddly remembered in only that dispassionate way that comes from time past.

Our parting was in anger, disgust, and vehement bile, but something which had to be done, for a life too long together, and for a lie too well lived. It is the moment in my life I defined how too common complacency is in our lives, and how too often we will choose the rut, rather then do what we know we must in our hearts.

Now, many years past, it is odd that I still reflect sometimes on that ghost of my memory. Admittedly, not with hate, or spite, or love, or anything else that could be calling representing invested concern. Indeed, it is nothing more then an apathic bond I think.

Yet, here I am, spilling the reminiscence, like so much bitter blood. Guess nature makes monster of all our pasts.

So, here is the house that Asgvar built, built on a dead past, a distant future and something bittersweet. Let us hope, that the legacy I create here, gives up something useful, and builds on the seed that has been planted.